Worthy of Love

I want to share with you guys a story from my personal walk with Jesus.

I was saved when I was 9 year old but I never knew to pursue a relationship with God until I was in my teens. When I started my freshman year of high school, I was goth/punk, wore a dog collar, and spiked my black hair with Elmer’s glue. Not exactly a picture of a godly girl.

I had a lot of self-image issues. I, like many 13 year old girls, thought I was unattractive and worthless. What did I have to offer anyone? Nothing, and I was nothing, no one would miss me if I feel off the face of the earth (not to mention suicidal thoughts).

These self demeaning emotions overwhelmed me everyday, until Jesus told me what my name meant. I was going through a box of junk and I found an art print that had my name and its definition-

Amanda:

Worthy of Love

It stopped me in my tracks. I couldn’t believe that is what my name meant. I didn’t think I was worthy of anything, above all love. My heart had ached for this message, it needed to hear it so desperately. I don’t remember crying so hard before that my life; it was a purging cry where a lot of the self hatred and image issues left me.

That day, God very personally taught me about my self worth and how he sees me. My eyes were a little brighter after that, my smile a little bigger, and my heart a little stronger.

Many of us have stories about pivotal moments in our walk with God, what’s yours?

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